Mommy guilt!

This morning all seemed to go as clear and graceful as the day that was brought upon us. Girls cooperated with their morning routines and were even ready 15 mins early.  “YES!!!! I will be making it to work early today”.

Enter drop off moment.  We walk in, say our good mornings, wash hands, put all articles away in the cubbies.  They sit down and I serve them breakfast.  Glance at my watch and wow I’m truly on point this morning.  Hugs and kisses to one and hugs and kisses to the next, but wait!!!!!  She won’t let go of my sweater. OK mommy loves you both and daddy will pick you guys up today.

And the water works begin.  Lower myself to her level and reassure her mommy loves and you’re going to have a wonderful day today. No NO No NO! Please stay, or can I please go to work with you.  Now this went on for 25 minutes and there was no reasoning with her as there is no reasoning with any 4-year-old. Negotiations, options, hugs, kisses and speaking; were all failed attempts on my behalf, but her guilt trip on me was definitely winning.  “Mommy your breaking my heart, because you’re not understanding me”.  How do I compete with that?  How do I bounce back and try to even win this one? Continue reading

Your Blank Canvas

Your blank canvas, to dress and adorn as your soul sees fit.

Small, large, black, grey, colors, and patterns- all tell a story of your desires, passions, loss, or present moments.  Strategically placed, thought out, and designed for your blank canvas.

That moment of vulnerability when the artist peeks, ponders, and judges your blank space.  Making your thought and his art a permanent feature on you.

The machine turns on, the needle is dipped into the black ink, your body’s adrenaline starts to kick in, blood quickly flowing, pain, anxiousness, are all rolled into one.

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Mother Nature


Mother Nature has allowed us the comfort of enjoying partial climate in the past few years, with some snow bumps along the way.  We became so accustomed that the true forecast of Winter was burned and became ashes in our fireplaces.

Now Mother Nature has decided to teach us a little lesson on not taking time, moments, life for granted.  We need to remember the unexpected can happen at any moment.  Time is not controlled by us, but instead time should teach us how to appreciate, learn, and live.

Stop the complaining about the snow; it’s a snowy, new canvas to imagine, re-group and contemplate on what needs to be cleaned in our lives; while we momentarily hibernate.   Spring will arrive sooner then we think; giving us the green light to evict the unwanted, un-needed, and un-warranted out of our path and lives.

This is Winter!  This is the area of the world you have decided to set your roots.  Embrace it, nourish it, and begin to comprehend it.  If you don’t, there will be others that take advantage of the Winter challenge.  Come Spring Mother Nature will remind us of the beauty she can hold.  And for the ones that decided to accept her challenge; it will blossom our minds, and souls.

What are you going to do?  Complain about Winter or Embrace the clean slate? 

Roles & Time

As moms, we wear many hats, and costumes.  Yet the most important role, I feel,  I have is being blessed with the opportunity of parenthood.  All the other undertaking that is present in my life has been put there by me and me alone.  I have chosen to pursue further education, while my daughters are still very young, and let’s just say it has not been easy on anyone from my husband to my-self.

 Now with that said here comes the magic part I’ve yet to master. Time….  Time has to be the biggest enemy against accomplishing any dream in life.  There is never enough of it, even when you believe; you have found a way to manage it.  How can one get through 5 quizzes, 2 forums, 16 chapters, plus work, and play the most amazing role mom and family Time!!! 

What an evil theory!!!!

The only step, I have been able to understand, but not master is mommy-hood.  If, I want to succeed in my career, then I need to continue nurturing the little ones at home, because that is what will matter most in the end.  Everything else, I will just play with the scale for as long as I can, without giving up. 

I may not catch up to Time, but I will figure out, how to wind- it- up, at my pace!

 ImageGirls art project balanced on Time!